Mastering Celibacy: A Journey of Self-Mastery
I am on a celibacy journey, not for religious reasons, nor because I believe sex or masturbation are inherently wrong or evil. My decision to pursue celibacy is a personal challenge—a conscious choice to take full control of my destiny. I do not want my sexuality to dictate my actions or emotions. I choose to be the captain of my life, and this path is one of mastering not only my emotions but also my sexuality.
Having lived as an ordained monk in Thailand, I was celibate for 9 months. During that time, the environment at the monastery made it relatively easier to maintain celibacy. A monk's life is meticulously designed around mindfulness and maintaining purity, and those conditions created an ideal space to focus on self-discipline and celibacy. The simplicity and serenity of monastic life helped eliminate many of the distractions that can often derail personal goals.
But in regular life, things are different. We are faced with endless distractions, responsibilities, and challenges that make staying on track much harder. This is where the true challenge lies. In everyday life, maintaining mindfulness and emotional mastery is more complex, requiring heightened awareness and intentionality.
For me, choosing celibacy in this modern, busy world is about mastering both my emotions and my sexuality. It is not about rejecting desires but about learning to control them. My goal is not to be celibate forever, but to reach a level of self-mastery where I know, without doubt, that I am in charge. This journey is not just about abstaining from sex—it's about consciously practicing celibacy until I can confidently say that I have full command over my actions and desires.
This is a journey of growth, mindfulness, and self-discipline. I am not merely avoiding distractions; I am choosing to stay focused, to maintain clarity, and to remain aligned with my goals. Celibacy, for me, is a path to becoming the master of my emotions and, ultimately, my life.
Alberta, Canada